Monday, 3 November 2014


It's been a bit of a strange time here, both as a nation and as an individual.

The "No" side won the referendum, but since then people have been joining the Yes parties en masse - over 2% of the electorate. Opinion polls show that a majority of people now back independence. Everywhere you go, people are talking about politics. We were promised more powers and there's a mood that they must be delivered and soon.

For me, I'm at a bit of a crossroads too. I was getting a bit fed up of my job and have a second interview with another company, but for reasons pertaining to childcare I'm not sure that it is the right path to take.

We're also speaking to a clinic about another IVF round, and need to call up and book an appointment.

Part of me is still torn about this as I'm worried about Huntington's Disease. But then if I am a carrier and the Boy has it, it seems sensible to have another child so the Boy is not alone. I know there's a risk that a second child could also have HD and the whole thing is a moral maze, but I think I just have to hope that everything will be ok.

One of the reasons we've decided to do a straight cycle rather than a donor one is that I could so easily only have found out about my Dad's HD after completing a donor cycle, which makes me think that any potential donor could have their own genetic flaws.

My parents aren't quite as bonkers as they were a few months ago, but my Mum keeps gabbling about HD being sent up into space, which is apparently "what they did with the disease the gay people get." I thought she was talking a lot of old nonsense, like the time she thought my frozen embryos were kept in my domestic fridge freezer.

Despite my initial skepticism, it turns out there is indeed a project to study HD in space but whenever she mentions any of this I get a mental image of my parents orbiting the Earth in a space station dressed up like Freddie in the "I want to break free" video, slightly bewildered but bickering pointlessly, and it I have to go and hide in the toilet until I stop giggling.

Anyway, we are at the point that we need to call up the clinic and do our initial tests.

I feel a bit under-prepared - or, maybe, that's the wrong word. I'm less obsessive about it than I was the last time. I need to start popping my folic acid tabs in short order (I should have started them before this), and I'll be cutting out alcohol and am doing more exercise. But I don't think I'll get to the stage of eschewing carbonated drinks or chilli, or doing any of the more dubious things I did the first time around. At least, I hope not.

So, lots of choices to be made, and things will no doubt change over the next few months. They're going to be interesting.


  1. What no Brazil nuts? Isn't that what you ate before? Meh I like them anyways. Hoping that none of your offspring will have HD and I hope that you won't have it either.

    1. Thanks.

      I actually quite like Brazil nuts, to the point that a lot of weight I put on during my first cycle turned out to be from them and not from the drugs.

  2. I don't envy you the decisions you have to make - weighing up what's right for you, the family as a whole, the Boy, and future children. I wish you well in it all - from the bottom of my heart.

    1. Thanks - I think we're just going to have to hope for the best. I ended up not going through with pursuing the other job, hope I made the right decision, but it just seemed like too much to cope with at the moment.

  3. I just had a conversation with my own doctor about not making choices based on fears about what might happen. So there you go, a medical professional saying live your life, worry about HD or cancer or whatever when you have to, because there is the chance that you won't have to. Hopefully neither you or the Boy will have to worry about it. All my best to you in this new IVF round!

  4. I don't know if you have heard of Freakonomics? A blog where a bunch of people look at loads of different issues from an economical point of view.
    If you can read an article where 'fertility' means how many children people are getting with a tidbit of HD thrown in, take a look at this:
    There is also a podcast if you prefer to listen, I'm a reader

  5. Ta, I'm going to look that up. I'd heard of it but never read it, will do so now!