Apologies for the delay in updating.
The clinic was good, I had a score of 350.
I'm now on the wait between the blood test and the first scan.
I'm finding the experience of the missed miscarriage the last time is making this one quite nerve wracking, to put it mildly.
Last time, I made a conscious decision not to be neurotic and try and enjoy the pregnancy. I made myself go out and try on maternity clothes not long after getting the result, and made some plans for holidays. I told myself it was ludicrous to worry about tempting fate by doing these things.
I did get all paranoid at around 6 weeks and got an extra blood test, which was fine and I felt silly for being so worried
I then was sick for the next 8 weeks or so, sore boobs, all the rest of it. No reason to suspect anything was wrong.
The nausea tailed off a fortnight or so towards my 12 week scan and I thought that was normal. The spotting I'd had for a few weeks stopped too.
I did feel very upset in the run up to the scan, but that could have been either subconsciously knowing or just that I don't like medical appointments.
Either way, it was still horrible finding out I'd had a missed miscarriage a fortnight before the scan.
At the moment, I worry that I'm not feeling sick or tired enough. I also generally get spotting in early pregnancy, which hasn't showed up either (I know, I know, it is weird to worry about not spotting, particularly how much angst it's given me before).
It's three weeks until my first eight week scan at the clinic, and every day feels like an eternity.
If I can just get to the eight week scan then I'm going to book a couple of reassurance scans. But at the moment I know there's nothing I can do but wait.